If i showed you who i am, would that help?

Seconds, hours, so many days

You know what you want, but how long can you wait?

Every moment last forever.

When you feel you've lost your way.

What if my chances were already gone?

I started believing that I could be wrong.

But you give me one good reason.

To fight and never walk away.

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain

Every breath, it's harder to believe

You'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes

To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere

Just when you almost gave up on your dreams

They take you by the hand and show you that you can

There are no boundaries.

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge

What if today is as good as it gets?

Don't know where the future's heading

But nothing's gonna bring me down

I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line

I risked being safe but I always knew why

I always knew why

So here I am, still holding on

is there some place i need to go, someone i need to see?

my father told me son, things seldom go the way we planned them, life can just be a chain of surprises, is there someone to teach me how the universe works?

like love, it is almost as i needs to be taught, learning by our mistakes only takes you so far, up to the point where you just want to give up, in life i am just not at the point to just give up. it seems i am in need  of a, some what longer, break from it.

after a long run, you need to stop,breath and take a moment, my moment seems to be here. for sure i can not run 100 mph but it seems i tried and have reality behind me, and now it caught up on me. my time is here, my break time. sure i am holding on to all that is around and about me. momentary it feels like i am searching in the crowd for a familiar face, and i just keep spinning on my heels to find it. sometimes it only needs is to reach out, reaching for the know, to meet so much unknown, it is frightening. 

back to basic, baby steps and breathing, one day at the time, the plan for the coming time, otherwise things, i deem important, can not be maintained, they will fall to pieces.

sometimes i can't help myself, i like to be in love with chaos, trying to sort things out, unravel, maybe even trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel. be honest: a mystery is much more tempting than the obvious.

you might have never seen this sight of me, because i don't let you get this close to me, i don't think of telling you what is going on in my mind, you jut don't know what is my creation, what is my life. how much aware are you of whats in my mind, in there i could be a monster, hiding and waiting. 

not to fear, i am not, well at least i think, i am just very protective of the man, that is me. a bit shaken at the moment, but trust me i am holding on....... still