one thing we should do, teach each other, about culture,music, art and maybe even love. we all fall over, for many or maybe just one reason. who can tell? so many things feel good at first, but as it lingers on it might even sting. i have learned to enjoy the good things even when they only last one minute, a moment in life, don't you want to get the most out of things in life?
change is everywhere, look around, does the world really look the same like yesterday? outside your window the tree you are seeing might be carrying one leaf less, so it did change, in appearance but it remains a tree. we change and adapt all our lives even when we try not to, there will be a moment when you will.
over the past year or two i have changed my view on some things, people and the way i spend my days. some changes have proven to be good once the others, well they might just take time, like i do.
if there is a vibe don't be shy to listen, look and learn. meeting new friends this week gave me some new energy, a different look on things, but interesting and never boring i must say. my head is in overdrive sometimes while i am on the beach, watching the sky while listening to my music. a few times i have caught myself already writing my blog on the beach. in parts s the story only unfolds when i am behind my keyboard. the signs that iam relaxing are everywhere, i only wished my insomnia wasn't this bad at times, but with days off i have the luxury to just stay in bed till it feels i had just enough sleep. so i am content with it. back home i will use the medication again to get into a healthy (as far as the use of medication gives you a healthy option) rhythm, and gather enough energy for work, family and friends.
2013, has only a few months left, lets make the most of it, and think happy thoughts. much has changed and some things just appear to be the same. somewhere these coming months i have to prepare for my last 12 months in a job i have done for so many years. even with a steady income i sometimes worry, about the income, how to spend my time, will i get a part-time job? 12 months seems a long way off, so did 34 years and look i almost arrived at the finish lines. the fact that i have friends and family to talk about it is helping me and somehow i will manage in every way, survival is one thing. and i have a little over a year to prepare. while typing i have to fight ants, little tiny spanish ants, i hate that, so later on its a trip to the store to get some chemicals to fight them...... small and annoying ..... they belong in a garden not a first floor apartment..... not in holland and not in spain. no exceptions!! and i do not even know where they are coming from, have to find out to place the poison in the good spot, they are getting me into the killing mode, the table top is already covered in bodies.... multi tasking typing and ant-killing. another talent added to my list.
the merman made a new appearance and man he is fast, almost as good as his looks. one blink of the eye and he has disappeared. next time i have to stop him to tell him to give me time to put my glasses on, otherwise i am (almost) as blind as a bat.
with the holidays mostly over the beach becomes almost empty and there is less and less of the blue-short moments. this has to be the thing of this year, blue shorts, and to my surprise it looks like the speedo is slowly being reintroduced to the beach. i wear short now too, but prefer to wear speedo's it is just better swimming, but with a little extended waistline a short its just the better option. adding to that the fact i still can visualize very overweight german bold man in way to small a speedo. not a appetizing view or memory.
well that thought put me off my snack urge, maybe an idea for a diet, show pictures of these german gentleman..... brrrrrr thats a shiver, i can only hope i loose this picture before going to bed.
the bay looked amazing today, just the perfect blue, and almost calm waters, the sound of the waves breaking on the beach still relaxes me. picking the navy as a job was a good thing i can compare this sound to the sound the ship makes cutting through the waves on the ocean on a clear day. during the hours not being on my post and able to lay on deck this was the thing that gave you peace, and the moment you were looking for during some long hours behind the radar. the sound of the ocean. glad a beach can give you the same thing because i would miss that the most. not every day i had a moment where i could say: "i love my job", but and that is a big one, in general i do, or rather did. time and politics have changed the work i so love, and for that i am glad it is almost over and like the new generation i do not have to worry after every new government that steps into office, because over the last 25 years it only looks like they are killing this special world called "the navy". being a nautical person, it doesn't just happen, the navy it is in your blood, it comes from the inside. that took me a while to realize but it is so true. the closer i get to the end line, i notice how much it is still part of my life. will it ever leave me? listening to old colleagues who have left the navy more than a decade ago, i am afraid it will never go away. i might not be an active part of it anymore, but in my heart and mind it will always be present. it gave me visions after visiting the world, it taught me culture, presented me with opportunities, and gave me friends from all over. it made me a rich man, having all these people in my life. it was truly, and still is the ride of a lifetime.
for one, nothing else would have made me visit this place if there would have not been my friend, my family. may my future even hold more friends and more ways to love and understand this world.... now's its time to meet some more.... que suerte...
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