How nice
would it be to be able to drift and go somewhere the wind would blow
you. After a good night sleep I awoke only with the wish that it
would be Saturday, and to find out it wasn't. It took me a little
more than usual to get on the move, and have my head around the fact
that there is work for me waiting somewhere.
Surprisingly
it didn't took to long to get my still sleepy head into the shower.
The first steps on my way to work. Managed to shave without cutting
myself, so a bonus!
Hardly
any traffic on the road, and I noticed some parts of my brain were
busy with something else but traffic, I enjoyed the crisp morning air
and for a change the music on the radio. Normally I would listen to
my own selection of music, either on my iphone or on spotify, but
this morning the radio was ok. My head was already on holiday I
noticed, I am longing for my holiday, signal that it is time to
switch off and let the world spin a few days without me being
involved too much.
The
prospect of being able to wander to the beach and do nothing but
listen to my music and swim a few laps when ever I feel like it. One
thing has never changed over the years, I am still in love with the
sea. The ultimate place for me to relax and forget about the troubles
or less beautiful days. Memories should be kept but I still prefer
the good ones, the bad ones I learn from and can only hope not to
make them again. Looking at my track record with man it looks like I
am a slow learner. As to finding my private and solitude moments I
have improved, I do know when I need to switch off and decrease
social calls or visits. Over the years I have learned that when I am
reaching my level of acceptance of a few things in life I need to
take a distance otherwise I might open my mouth and cause more harm,
not one of my attractive sides. But luckily I can manage them now.
Not always perfect timing, but part of the equation is not in my
hands. Some people can surprise me and bombard me with some really
annoying things and before I know my bucket runs over.
A few
more weeks and I can leave a few thing behind. This day is one of
those in-between days, rain yesterday sun tomorrow and summer will be
back. The talked about summer heat on its return for the coming days
and we will be punished for that the coming weekend. Punished? We
have done nothing wrong, complaining about the weather is as Dutch as
Gouda cheese. Most important about the weekend, I am off, and I am
able to have fun come rain or shine, I do not have to travel to work.
(such a bonus)
So in 3
weeks back to Spain to friends and (almost) family, sun and sea. The
ones that are leaving the coming days to other places will be missed,
but I will find sorrow on my towel on the edge of the shoreline. It
seems I have evolved, I am perfectly happy being a single tourist.
Not really a tourist but I can fully pretend I am. Just packing my
suitcase and head for the sunny south, without baggage, in the shape
of a husband, friend or boyfriend. Its time to be holiday single and
stay that way. I got different fish to fry, literary! Dating will be
on the agenda for the distant future. Sticking to my plan, otherwise
my old dining room will never become a TV room. And I am postponing
this now for way too long.
Yawn, my
body wants to sleep, and who knows dream of greener pastures, I am in
for that. A little daydream never hurt anyone...... lets give it a
try.... go to a place only I know..
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