The start of the year where i will be.......

When the calls and conversations
Accidents and accusations
Messages and misperceptions
Paralyze my mind

Busses, cars, and airplanes leaving
Burning fumes of gasoline
And everyone is running
And I come to find a refuge in the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me

And anger plays on every station
Answers only make more questions
I need something to believe in
Breathe in sanctuary in the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me

Children lose their youth too soon
Watching war made us immune
And I've got all the world to lose
But I just want to hold on to the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me

Walked around my favorite spanish town yesterday and was able to enjoy the first warm air this year and it felt amazing. Just walking along the beach and listening to some music. This song came up as i just sat down to enjoy the sun, and took of my jacket. It's january and i can sit on a beach in a t-shirt....... isn't the world great this way?

Than indeed all i long for is a bit of silence in a world that otherwise makes so much noise, and it doesn't seem to want to shut up. So when i than look back at the moments and remember that's exactly what I could from him, peace and no noise. This song just brought back that memory. With the Christmas period just gone and finished another “happy” period passed but what a load of noise it makes and I must admit it indeed creates some end of the year stress.

My festive season was even extended as I celebrated the Christmas days at home but after rolled into the festive season in spain, and they go on till 6^th of January. Yesterday was the first festive zone free day, and what a great one it was! Don't get me wrong, I love being here but what a blessing a quiet day can be!

2012 has arrived, it should have been a year full of changes, but it is somewhat limited, as where I supposed to be going on retirement this year that has been moved to 2014, but I am still turning 50. Something that needs celebrating, as tradition demands. So I better plan ahead as it is going to be a family thing I can not escape. So from today I got a couple of months to get use to that idea, trust me it is still not easy. Around me I do have noticed that things just seem to take their course, well my head is telling me something everyday it seems.

Still call it officially becoming a old man, but maybe I should look forward as a new way off life will start in 2 years from now, and prepare for that. There are still some things that need closing and ending so I can go easy into retirement and focus on things after being let go.

So many years of working, and yes I realize other people have to work much longer and more than I ever did or will do, but still it is my everyday life, and the navy does take you in to it's own world where over the years you get use too so many things. For the moment I have set some goals to reach at 50 and some at 52 when indeed my job comes to an end. This year is to see what I can actually handle in that period and what things I was able to close and move on.

The ball is rolling and now I have to keep it on track, and it's not going to be easy but with some help en good thinking and a little planning it should be possible.

Who know's I might even list next year what I actually managed to do, so I am not going to tell the goals I set for this year I will just let it happen and hope for the best as some factors are not in my hands. One thing is going to happen and that is that I will be officially single again this year and my ex should be of a different nationality as when we started this marriage. Time to close that door and hopefully by summer that goal will be met.

For know, a few more quiet moments and finishing some emails and naturally post this little piece.