who are we

Who are we to be emotional 

Who are we to play with hearts 

And throw away it all 

Who are we to turn each other’s heads 

Who are we to find ourselves in other people's beds 

I don't like the way I never listen to myself 

I feel like I'm on fire, I'm too shy to cry for help 

I don't think you know me much at all 

This love is be and end all 

This love will be your downfall 

I'm feeling down about this love 

Who are you to make me feel so good 

Who are we to tell ourselves that we're misunderstood 

Oh who am I to say I'm always yours 

Who am I to choose the boy that everyone adores 

I don't see a reason why we can't just be apart

Now we're falling on each other like we're always in the dark

I don't think you warned me much at all 

This love is be and end all 

This love will be your downfall 

This love is not what you want 

This heart will never be yours 

This love is be and end all

This love will be your downfall 

Sunny morning today and I listened to this song, and most of it made sense for its own reason. Not the typical love song to listen to but it sounded like my last attempt as I recently have been calling it. 

Not much has happened in my life it just feels like nature kicked me in the butt to get me moving again, not only my sorry ass back to the gym but also emotional. Thanks Mother Nature, just what I needed to wake up from this emotional hibernating. Cliché or not the world really does look different once nature calls. 

So I am back in the gym but to make sure I keep on going I have teamed up with one of my colleagues who also needs a push in the right direction and so far we are doing good. 

Good thing I am not trying to reverse the hands of time and think they will make me look younger. Even though it hurts. But life is moving forward, step by step at the moment but I take my steps with a smile. Some things in life seem to make more sense and my friendships are helping me here, although there is a change coming in my close circle.  But whatever remains I will be fine with it, and friends come in to our lives at one point and some are destined to leave at another moment and time. Evolution of friendship as it is called. 

After what seems a long storm in my head, the grey clouds made way for some sunnier intervals, I am not yet out of the cloudy skies but like outside I have more periods of sun.... (Might that be the reason my head feels that warm sometimes?) 

Not a new beginning as we sometimes talk off when we close a book, I think I evaluated that wrong it is adding another chapter to the book that is called my life. You might need some editions of a manual that is me, but my story should only be one book, with many chapters as it seems. This work is written with some analyzing along the way during the writing process and I am afraid that the last line will be the text on my tombstone! Good that I planned ahead and made that one clear, the only thing left blank is the date. 

So when my story is finished, well that would be it, this page, if than still in existence will not be updated with my famous last words...... well let’s keep that thought for the far, far away future. For the moment I have other things on my mind. 

This is one of these days that I find myself in the office, not flushed with work but only little tasks to perform and plenty of time to think and have coffee, lunch is actually just around the corner, let’s focus on that one, what will I have .... he he he ... chicken or beef?? The simple thought of going on holiday, can’t wait, need my Spanish sun and friends and forget work for a few weeks en just be on a beach read a book and be with friends. Well for now one of my close friends is dragging me to lunch. Until next time!