hold you in my arms at night in the dark and i wonder...
if you had to leave, could i let you go? i wonder...
images shake me right down to the bone, like thunder
if you couldn't see me would i walk away and just go?
i want to feel alive tonight
i don't want to take away the light,
i'd rather be the one to glow.
yes i, want to feel alive tonight
i don't want to be the darkness,
i would rather be the one to glow...
do i understand, have i learned anything? i wonder?
the judges in my mind don't think i can stay any longer.
images shake me right down to the bone, like thunder.
and if you couldn't see me would i walk away and just go?
some day i will fit this skin
shining brightly from within
i won't be the dark you see
i don't need to be...
i want to feel alive tonight,
i'd rather be the one to glow.
yes i, want to be the light tonight.
Why is it that when we doubt we stop shining? Is that in our manual? Don't think so, but I have to come clear, when I doubt my love, my opportunities, my train of thought, I do indeed forget to shine I go into a kinda grey place. To think, or rethink what ever I am faced with at the moment. Completely forgetting about things I am good at, things I handle almost everyday.
Recently I have been able to watch some relationships start, evolve and end, and too all of them, one part glowed and one went dark, or was forced to shine less bright. When we talk about relationship, equal parts are what we aim for, so why, and gays you went to the top here, has there always be one to be called the pretty one? Why does one have to feel he is adored more than the partner?
Shouldn't the game be over? Or is the hunter (quietly) testing the playground and looking for (available) prey still some one you want to be targeted by? What do you have to prove to your man? The fact that you are gorgeous, still wanted, held you (momentary) market value?
As ex hunter still being able to shake the prey, having them look at you with these:" please-pick-me-eyes". WTF?
While trying to make it work in an age where relationships are more going through rough weather as walking in sunshine, do you still want to add another dimension?
More and more it looks like caring for someone and sticking to it has become a full time job. Is it worth it? Worth so much that you forget to shine? Be the light others can look for, navigate on, or warm them selves. Winter is here, but also in la-la-land, passion and love seem to have taking a vacation, "gone fishing, love Amor", that's all what we see when love comes knocking for an opportunity.
Look, at yourself, at him, at the "us" you work so hard to be. Are you yourself acting like you expect him to act? Be honest, now telling me there is a difference in age, really? When first telling me about the amazing sex, long nights talking, before or after the sex bit, it was no issue, the few years of difference, but once it is about your personal space and how you want to paint your closet, it does? I need my little bit of freedom, sure, now I hear you, but you want me too to be honest? Think you have to stop, look and think, before crossing my road.....
Yes I am a good listener, and sure you can tell me all and everything, but I will confront you with it once your principles are getting side tracked, by you! Don't tell me how you want it to be, and have another script when it becomes about you, darling in a duet you need to be singing the same song, otherwise it stinks...... Terribly!
Winter is coming, when the nights are full of terror, well I would rather be the one that glows right now, to shine a light on things to come, and in the end you know I will be here, because in my way I love you for who you are........ My friend, my good friend ( and no age restriction here)
So when doubt is near and a solution might not be visible, look for me and maybe my glow can shine some light on what ever is troubling your views.
