Grey start to the day and a sunny end to a busy one…… well busy, we traveled a lot as London’s underground had many closures that would have provided us with a smooth run home.
So we traveled in a light drizzle to a part I have never been before to use connections I should never to have used to get towards the centre of London.
Forced by maintenance we went on a sightseeing trip, but in the end got where we wanted to go. Seems life is a bit like this lately, unexpected and taking different corners.
The older we get the more experience we have, or think we have but still we get the surprises, some wanted and some not needed at all, but still they hit us.
We take a blow sometimes as easy as a kiss and move on, all because we call this life. It happens, my father would have said.
How I miss talking to him, lately I would have loved to do that and we might have laughed at some things and I know he would have made me think twice about something. In the end I would have had his advice and be the richer for it. The possibility of a talk with my dad, I still remember the times where I avoided them at every possibility I could, the period also know as puberty….. It makes me laugh now. How long ago it seems, and now I look at my brother and sisters as their kids approach this period…. Dad you were so, so right, and today you would still be. Now when we have a family gathering they mention what happened and look at me, whether to get advice or just see how I react, I don’t know and I can only pass on a few wise things you were able to teach me. Life still has it’s moments and even when I am expected to be wise or balanced I seem to be taken by surprise and feel different as from where I should be. Do I need to be a grown up? And if yes is the answer, why? Please do not answer as I am not in need of that one, whether it is getting old and not want too or just feeling young somewhere and not quite there yet, I have no idea. Sometimes is feel growing old is not on my agenda, but I see it in the mirror. Whether I want it, or not.
Life is passing me by, not completely unnoticed I must say but it is happening, the days where I did not even notice it happening are gone. The clock is ticking only difference now I can hear it. Tick-tack.
Personally I think I am blessed, with the people around me at the moment, at work where we are of different background, origin, country and age. They keep me young at heart, the rest is supported by the capsules in the morning, so my bones don’t go brittle or start cracking or make these funny noises when I walk up stairs.
Love seems to never get old, the feelings stay the same and it happens more or less in the same way. With the internet, the smart phones and everything, we can say; “there is an app for it”. But in the end, that what you feel in the kiss in the embrace, that is what it is all about. So happy there is a person for it instead of an app!
Love takes us by surprise when we are not watching or when we least expect it. But as times are changing so is our perception of things we previous thought to be odd or not done. The differences in people we find now more “normal”, as where our parents and grand parents would have shivered by the mere thought of it.
Age was one of the big issues, we all know the old man with the young woman, but now the age gap seems to be widening. Not only in years but also in the variety. Call me old-fashioned when I give some things a second thought, only to find my self thinking about what others would think of it. Why do we not ask the person it is happening too what they are feeling? Are we afraid to find something what is missing in our life in this “abnormality”? Some of these perceptions might once be started because there was a reason for it, to survive. Have we not long passed this stage? Religion and other believes aside, can we not simply be happy? True there are limits we should not cross but why do we care so much about the others? My life can be called many things but not dull, I sometimes long for a day I can call boring, where it seems nothing is happening, but even than, I just got a day older. After relationships that failed for their own reason why should I not simply fall in love again? With, who knows the right person? This buzzing feeling that makes us so happy, that reasoning seems something that happened in medieval times, why just not let it happen? Whoever is the cause of it? The fact that you feel wanted or admired or just loved for who you are, as a soul, not as a ageing body or and old person, but just as you and what the other person sees in you. That can not the too much too ask for, or could it? Recently I have been lucky to see several people around me fall in love and just let it happen; well they try to let it happen. Still they ask me if and why or if they should. For the moment I can only say, please let it, there is enough happening around us that if we would look closer would not make us happier. Take what ever day or moment you can have to smile, as it might not come around tomorrow.
The feeling I get putting my arm around someone and fall asleep without feeling that there is just more to it as what I got in the moment are gone. The fact that I can fall asleep with a human being in my arms and feel this peace inside is more than enough; it makes me smile from the inside and is warmer than a summer’s day. Peace in mind and body, even limited by the edge of my bed, but to me the world is a better place those few moments. So, I wish you all the love in the world and most of all I wish it from myself. You know who you are, go out look at each other and take the moment. The world will not stop because of it, but at least you have something no one can take away. This is your time, use it wisely……….
